Do you ever feel like someone was sent to you in a specific instance where you needed something so desperately and it appeared?
I have been feeling very emotionally drained and much more emotionally fragile that I am used to feeling. I feel like I have not acquired the tools in order to deal with my feelings in a healthy way. I am seeking therapy, it was recommended that I do that right after I was injured because it was such a traumatic experience. Next week marks one year since my injury and I had wanted to be "more" recovered at this point. I guess I feel like I should have done more in my time off, and I should have done something really amazing and inspiring and wonderful. I don't feel like I did any of those things. I need to remind myself that I was recovering.. Sometimes I have these conflicting thoughts in my mind like that I am not doing anything in my life, I'm not helping anyone, I don't make a difference to anyone, etc etc. The other part of myself knows that this is not true and I'm in a constant fight with my own mind.
Anyway, back to my first question. As I said I have had a really hard few weeks. There are a lot of things up in the air in my life and I was feeling down, overwhelmed, and generally hopeless. This morning I decided I wasn't going to feel like that anymore. It's Halloween and I put on my happy witch hat (it has sparkles and hot pink and lime green details) and I trotted off to work with a smile and tried to make the best of my day. My hat has made everyone giggle and sometimes I forget I'm wearing this witch hat and I wonder why I'm getting these funny looks. I went into the elevator and this little boy walks in, he's clearly sick. He has sad sunken eyes, he almost looks like he has two black eyes they are so sunken. He's thin and fragile, his skin is pale, his hair is thin, he's probably about 6 years old. He walks in and sees my hat and a huge smile comes across his face. I say "happy Halloween!" he said "you too." His mom looks at me and says "Good witch or bad witch?" and I said "good witch of course!!" The little boy takes my hand and looks me straight in the eye and says "I know you're a good witch, you heal people." I literally welled up with tears and he walked out of the elevator with another "happy Halloween" and his big smile, and poof he was gone. It literally made my day. I don't think I'll ever forget this little boy and he will never know the impact that he had on my life. I feel so special that I made him feel like there are good people in the world. People who heal people. Magic people who are able to take his worries away, worries that no six year old should ever have to have.
I really feel like he was sent from heaven to help heal me. Thank you universe, it was desperately needed.
xo
p.luiz
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